Dying Fulfilled : Have I changed?

Friday, May 3, 2013

Have I changed?

I moved here to sunny California in December I joined Vaughn International Studies Academy in January and I met all of my teachers in February. I didn't know about this project until my first day in February when I went to English class. My first thought was, "This is a pretty cool and interesting project but what's the point?" I was under the impression that I would live forever and no life changing event had ever happened to me so why should I start my bucket list now when I barely have time. Everybody is always telling me to live life to the fullest, but I never understood how to do that when I was so busy trying to ensure I could have a good future. I thought I would be able to live life to the fullest once I became successful and had the time to do it. This project helped me realize that it is possible I might never have time. I could be busy for the rest of my life and do I always want to put off doing the things I've always wanted to do in order to do something that doesn't really matter? Of course not, but at the same time I really need to realize that I still could live forever. When I started crossing off my list I began to get lost in this idea that I need to seize the day everyday,which is possible, but unrealistic. I began slacking on things like homework and chores. I felt almost lost because my only goal was to cross off the next thing on my list. But then it hit me one day when I was looking at my grades. I wrote on my bucket list that I want to make a life changing/awe-inspiring movie but I can't really do that unless I get an education. Now I see that as long as I manage my time, I can do all the things I want that are meaningful and still prepare for my future. Trust me when I say this is no easy task. Sometimes it may seem that I have all the time in the world and others times I feel like I have no life and am just married to my textbooks. The point is, life is about balance and a lot of the time, balance is about knowing what is important. For once, I think I actually know what that might be.

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My Bucket List

1.) Drive down Rhodeo Dr like in the movies (X)
2.) Make beef stew from scratch
3.) Ride a motorcycle
4.) Kiss in the rain
5.) Become an ordained minister (X)
6.) Invent something awesome(X)
7.) Vote
8.) Visit the moon
9.) Go undercover
10.) Help Wolf Gang Puck make food for the Oscars
11.) Visit a club but don't drink
12.) Go on a treasure hunt
13.) Learn how to Waltz (X)
14.) Stand up for someone in need
15.) Sleep in a tree house
16.) Go rock climbing
17.) Wear a million dollar dress
18.) Dye somebody's hair
19.) Throw my fist in the air with feeling (like in The Breakfast Club)
20.) Kiss a famous, hot actor
21.) Swim with dolphins
22.) Do a flashmob (X)
23.) Ride the tallest roller coaster in the world
24.) Read a book in one day (X)
25.) Go fishing
26.) Go to an abandoned store and trash it (like in Zombieland)
27.) Win an Oscar
28.) Go to Ireland and sing the song from Legally Blonde about Irish men
29.) Cry without apologizing(X)
30.) Laugh until I cry
31.) Learn fencing
32.) Meet Quentin Tarantino
33.) Write a real letter and send it with no return address
34.) Help a spirit reach the afterlife
35.) Prefect my British Accent
36.) Play a real piano
37.) Be given a rose (X)
38.) Fall in love (X)
39.) Meet the smartest person in the world
40.) Go to a fair
41.) Walk home from school (X)
42.) Introduce myself to my neighbors (X)
43.) Direct a musical
44.) Perform at a comedy club
45.) Smile and mean it (X)
46.) Finish writing my book
47.) Run into a store, ask what year it is, and then run out screaming, "IT WORKS." (X)
48.) Order diet water (X)
49.) Go to a drive in with a boy
50.) See a movie at the Hollywood Cemetery
51.) Shoot a basket on my first try
52.) Perform at the Shakespeare Festival
53.) Go to the Ultra Music Festival
54.) Enter and win a pie eating contest
55.) Be in two places at once (X)
56.) Breakfast at Tiffany's (X)
57.) Watch my cousin spell his name
58.) Start a food fight
59.) Go paint balling
60.) Sing in the rain
61.) Egg someone's car
62.) Go to one of my Dad's concerts
63.) Go to fashion week
64.) Go on a shopping spree with my friends in London
65.) Play in a rock band
66.) Climb to the top of a mountain
67.) Eat snails (X)
68.) Swim with sharks
69.) Make a meal entirely from scratch for my whole family
70.) Finish a puzzle (X)
71.) Meet every author who has ever written a book I liked
72.) Walk the redcarpet (X)
73.) Try to make a Buckingham Palace soldier laugh
74.) Visit a Psychic
75.) Find my 3 am
76.) Learn sign language
77.) Bake a cake from scratch and decorate it (X)
78.) Run for President
79.) Meet the richest person in the world
80.) Ride a train (X)
81.) Go on a road trip to the east coast
82.) Ride the bus by myself (X)
83.) Speak in only french for a whole day
84.) Find the end of a rainbow
85.) Go to the superbowl
86.) Learn to surf
87.) Kiss someone on the top of the Empire State Building
88.) Be a Hero
89.) Go to an airport, get a ticket for the next departing plane to wherever, and go
90.) Dance in the rain
91.) Have a birthday party and invite all my friends (X)
92.) Go to a real haunted house
93.) Learn how to dance the tango
94.) Go Skydiving
95.) Stand up in the back of a truck in a tunnel
96.) Go to a restaurant and taste everything on the menu
95.) Sing in front of people (X)
96.) Make a full length movie
97.) Help a homeless person (X)
98.) Visit the real Hogwarts
99.) Visit Europe by myself
100.) Witness a miracle
101.) Wish on a shooting star
102.) Visit Africa
103.) Hug a Koala Bear
105.) Learn Archery (X)
106.) Make a film that touches everyones heart